I didn’t realize how important this was until recently. Until recently, I’d been kind of just getting through life, not making a lot of choices, but doing what felt right in the moment. This leads to a lot of wasted time and wasted time honestly leads to disappointment for me. Why didn’t I finish this project? Why is my apartment a disaster? Oh, because I felt like watching movies all day or I’m doing work I can do but not really enjoying or making a lot of money off of. Which was more important to me in the long term?, I asked myself. I discovered that fostering my creativity was so I focused on that. I made a few decisions:
First, I would get out of tech for reals this time. My intention when I left my office job was to go back to school to study psych. But after really looking at why I wanted to do that, I realized I would be wasting good time and money. Because I’m smart, it was expected that I would go far. I realized pretty quickly that I didn’t care so much as I wanted the status and to prove others right. Status isn’t that big a draw for me.
Secondly, I decided to take my crafting more seriously. I started trying to get to it every single day. I had to train myself not to get down on myself if I was having a block. That switch from intellectual problem solver to creator is still a bit sketch, but I’m giving myself the time and patience, thankfully, to find my way.
I still have a lot further to go. I’d like to have a good morning and evening routine that support my creativity. I need to continue working on a regular basis and posting up WIPs or finished stuff. But that’s all for another day. Today I’m just happy that I can finish a card for a friend 🙂
What’s your everyday like? Is it supporting where you want to be? How do you want to grow? Let me know in the comments!