One of my major goals for 2013 was to start on a total redesign of my apartment. I’m happy to say that has now begun! Actually getting the whole thing started was a bit of an issue but I’ve ordered the first new pieces now so it feels like it’s really happening!
Getting to this was actually a massive spot of growth for me. For the longest time, I’d defaulted to what was good or needed right now. The hubby and I had been having the big adult conversation of “let’s stop living in this upgraded dorm and do something specific and intentional with our interior design” In honor of being two adults in a respectful marriage, we tried to compromise.
In the beginning, I was really concerned that I would just default to Ryan’s ideas as he has a big opinion and I tend to be more giving. Just the thought of that pissed me off but I didn’t know why I was feeling that. Over the last couple of days, I’ve tried to find fun inspiration for our compromise (mid-century modern) and have found myself totally uninspired by the project.
Yesterday morning, I was lying in bed asking myself why. I’ve been given the dream project. Why was I so uninspired? And then it hit me. Our compromise was so far from my desire that it was uninteresting. The fact that I had a clear thing that I desired so much that it was making everything else uninteresting is a totally new experience for me. That’s when I knew I had to fight for my desire, another thing that’s pretty foreign to me!
Thankfully, when I came to Ryan and explained it all to him, he was totally on board with me getting exactly what I wanted. I’m sure this whole thing will seems small and silly to some people, but for me, this was a massive change in my approach to life. I’m really proud of myself!
So expect to see the addition of my work in progress home pictures. Last night, I ordered our new dining room set, which you can see to the left, so our dining nook will be the first area to see a major overhaul. Once all the pieces get here, I’ll be making (or ordering, if I can find ones I like) linens and seat cushions and hanging art to give the space a ton of personality. I also really like my current dinnerware set but it’s starting to show it’s 60-ish year old age after a year and a half of heavy use. I’m thinking it’s time to start the update to the Cath Kidston stuff of my dreams!